The Reversal

Am so angry with myself..I need to change.I want to become the person I used to be..I used to be patient,loving,happy and always smiling.Those things don't happen anymore.I seem to have lost myself somewhere on the journey here..I have become something else and everyday I am growing more aware of it.I want to be free of all this. I want to let this demons in me fade away..Everything is not like what I thought it would be...I only know that I can change. everything else just stays the same..I don't want to hate myself more than I already do..