The Riddle

I didn't know
How and when to say a 'no'
And everytime I said 'yes'
Life became nothing less than a mess..

seasons came and seasons went..
But nothing could lend me a vent.

compromises and sorrows ,
inexplicable woes..
these became my friends
in my journey through life's tangled bends.

I am stuck in the middle,
unable to solve this abstruse riddle..

YOU

A blessing in disguise,
You came as a surprise.
Something striked a chord
and lead to a bond that can't be ward.
We knew we would be together,
either be it now or later.
I wait for you everyday,
to hear what you say..
Agree or disagree ,both are fun.
With every meet , a lot ,I learn.
Sometimes I am a dumbo,
sometimes a fool.
But with you, everything seems so cool..
I thank you for being there
and listening to everything that I share.
You take my side in whatever I say
such little things you do make my day. :)

I was reading in my room, when I heard a sound. It was as if something fell in the water. First I brushed it off as my imagination. I was listening to some music, so thought it might be coz of that..After sometime I heard another flapping sort of sound. I rushed to my bathroom only to find a poor creature drowning in the tub.The tub was deep and narrow, so it was not able to come up. My room is in the first floor and I have opened my windows to let some breeze in. This might have come through that and somehow managed to go near the tub and must have fallen into it accidentally..I couldn't make out what it exactly was. It might be a rat, a squirrel or some reptile.. Poor thing it was so wet , it almost became a lump. I tried to move it,but it seemed very weak .
And it was drowning..
I need to rush, I thought..
I couldn't see it dying in front of my eyes. But I didn't know what to do. I tried a stick. Thought, it might come up with its support, but it was so weak to even move ,let alone climb. And I have this fear of reptiles. ..So couldn't even go near it.
But then , its a 'life'.
If I don't act then ,I will be responsible for its death. So I took a mug and tried to make it enter that so that I can leave it outside. I had all goose pimples and my adrenaline was pumping.It almost came into that mug, and suddenly I had a doubt that it may be a reptile. I trembled a little and this poor thing jumped ..scaring me off...and again fell into the tub..By this time I knew that I won't be able to make it. So I rushed downstairs, called my father and my sis for help. My father came and helped it come into a mug and safely left it outside my room. It didn't move for a while ,then stood up and rushed its way into the bushes...only then we realised that it was a squirrel..
I stayed back in the room, feeling happy for the squirrel, but disappointed with myself.
So, the moral of the story is .....
It is not enough if we just have a desire to help. We should also have enough courage to execute it, or it may be too late. Not always can you find your father downstairs..

My Header

Mm..changed the header..Tired of being gloomy..I know it feels very out of place, considering my previous posts. But this is how I always wished myself to be..Independent, alone,carefree, happy and adventurous..Liked the picture in the first look. There is some peace in it, which I could relate to..

Moreover am a happy girl these days. More happier than I had been in all the previous years. I have got this little "freedom" for two months. The value of freedom can be best experienced when we don't have it.I had my days when I longed for it . So when I have it ,am enjoying it to the hilt. I know that this is only temporary , but that is not stopping me from savoring it.

Being alone is a gift many a times. It helps us to have an insight into ourselves , helps to know ourselves better .I got to know about me in this one month more than I had known myself ever..
Am even surprising myself in the way am taking some things. And am very glad for the change..So,am posting my happiness here.. :). this is me beaming.. I know how am going to rememember this phase of my life..

"This part,this little part of my life is called happyness". .:)

I wish the world much more happiness than am experiencing now.Hope this happiness spreads... :)

It is dark, it is thick,
thick and weaved after the day,
the day that can't get away,
Get away,no theres got to be no way.
Way ,for some may be sweet,
sweet it was for me too,but became a mare it is.
It is in those dark lanes I lay still.
Still I lay,hiding my pain,
Pain to give comes all those ..
Those..why do they come into my lane?
My lane,its my kingdom and my home...
my home,hah..used to be so once upon a time,
Time now is invaded and..
and they won't let me be,be.
Be what I was..
Was I left a broken piece
A piece...when will it rest in peace...

The Movie...

Watched a movie today,with my sis,after a long time..was waiting for this since long.It is మల్లెపువ్వు ,starring Bhumika and a new hero. Somehow, I like Bhumika,a lot. Never used to like her before, but developed a liking towards her after "Anasuya". May be even before that. I like her not only coz of her onscreen chemistry, but also coz of the offscreen persona that she is. There are no contraversies about her and she always carries that sweet smile around. There is some aura of pleasantness about her.

And about the movie..I can't say that its a great movie, but its a good one. When I heard the name, I first thought of it as a romantic movie.But the trailors made me think otherwise.It indeed is not a romantic movie in its truest sense ,but I can say ,its a realistic movie, except for the climax. Its about the story of a happy girl ,who suddenly finds herself in the most unacceptable, unimaginable and unwished for circumstances and has to disguise herself as a boy, and starts working as a daily labour in a construction .The hero is a co-labour there , and somehow comes to know that he(She) is a girl, falls in love instantly (which I found a little unrealistic,though) and the rest of the story is how he rescues her.

The hero is a debutant and he looks like srikanth (And prabhas combo??). Thoda kachha in acting skills, which is acceptable coz he was working with some senior actors there.Tried to imitate prabhas in dialogue delivery.All the songs in the movie are dream sequences of the hero scattered here and there, coz our heroine is in trouble and in no mood for a duet. Hahaah...But one good thing about the songs is, atleast the hero didn't dream of himself in australia or america. All his dream songs were in the same half constructed building. He even dreamt of sofas in brick. :) .The movie is quite slow and half past the interval, its still the flashbak. I was wondering about both the hero and heroine, as she was in great trouble and he had to rescue her and we were running out of time..May be the director realised that he had to rush through the flick and there the story ends so suddenly and peacefully, and I was like ..ahh..so this can happen this way too..hahaaah...Coz at one time I was wondering about the ending, about how he could make it , coz the hero was just a daily labourer..So the movie ends on a happy note, but definitely not like the typical tollywood ones..

Well , I didn't write this to recommend the movie to anyone.Coz many people may not be able to sit through it.And even bhumika didn't have much performance either. Just saw the movie and felt like writing about it.For me , I think I have got my entertainment for what I paid. So, thats it. If anyone wants to watch this, its at their own risk.;)

Long time, since I have been here. Though I want to write a happy post, am afraid I may not. Unfortunately, its always " pain" that brings me here. Am not depressed , but today I can sense some things dying in me.Its no fault of anybody's. Its just that I overdo things. Am late by seven plus one_seven, and may be am overworking myself to show and get all that I missed out and for all those that am going to miss in future. Since three and half years I have been trying to do only one thing in life with unswerving devotion and that too fizzled. No, I didn't get anything wrong. Its just that I never knew how to express and how to handle things. Overdoing anything dilutes the fun. And I got it right.Sad that I had to learn it the harder way, the way I have chosen for myself in everything and anything. Wish that I learn it atleast now.