Those Moments

Heavens didnt fall,
The world didn't come to a still ,
I was not drowned into the earth's crust,
My heart didn't stop functioning...


Everything looked so normal..only i could tell whats happening there deep down.There was a numbness that was taking the place of everything that belonged to me.My whole existence was nullified to a void and i felt as if am lost in oblivion.Those were the moments i always feared.Moments which could give me sleepless nights.And when they did come alive...why

the heavens didnt fall ;

the world didn't come to a still ;

I was not drowned into the earth's crust ;

My heart didn't stop functioning .....

Am i so numb, so passive, so callous that even moments like these couldnt evoke the expected? when i heard you cry and stil when u could tell me that this is hard for you,why was i not freezed into nothingness? How i wanted to kiss away all your pain and say you neednt go through all these..how i want myself to vanish into obscurity..but nothing happened...

The heavens didnt fall,

the world didn't come to a still,

I was not drowned into the earth's crust,

My heart didn't stop functioning...

And when we resigned yet again, that we could not do this,and when everything was brushed off as another tiff ...and when we still know that it has disappeared just to surface at someother time in future...yet, why am I so content and delighted? Don't I know that, this is not what you want..Am I postponing the inevitable? Certain questions are better left unanswered...